Keine Ahnung wies euch geht, aber ich bin grad total in Sommerlaune ^^ Wenn ich nicht die ganze Zeit lernen müsste, könnte ich diesen Drang ganz viel draußen zu machen auch ausleben...irgendwie klappt das aber nicht so ganz. Noch eine Woche, dann ist das Schlimmste überstanden =) Heut heißts nochmal ein bisschen auf meine Theorieprüfung büffeln. Eigentlich sollte ja alles gut gehen, ich mein ich hab meiner Meinung nach genug gelernt...aber man kann ja nie wissen und wenn ich zu selbstsicher bin und es geht schief...ohje...ich will garnicht dran denken @___@
Langsam sollte ich auch mal anfangen Sawakos Abschlussfest zu planen...die Einladungen müssen spätestens übermorgen raus, hab also noch was zu tun ^^
Achja, für alle die es nicht wissen: ICH HAB MEINE FLUG GEBUCHT!!! Japan wird mich ab dem 25. Dezember 2009 für drei Wochen aufnehmen und ich freu mich so MEGA!!! Unser Direx hat mir sogar genehmigt noch ne Schulwoche dranzuhängen x) Ich darf garnicht dran denken, da bekomm ich voll Panik! Ich freu mich so ^____^ Und dann wird richtig toll Silvester gefeiert, ne ^.~ Da gehts dann ab!! XDD
Lang, lang ist her =) Unterdessen ist Shreya schon wieder nach Hause geflogen. War eine echt schöne, wenn auch anstrengende Zeit mit ihr. Wenn ich an meinen Indienaufenthalt im Oktober denke, dann mit gemischten Gefühlen. Klar wird das toll werden, aber ich muss sicher auch ziemlich oft einfach den Mund halten...Naja, noch mach ich mir da nicht so viele Gedanken drüber. Das kommt dann Anfang Oktober ^^
Ich bin grad soooooooo verrückt nach "Full House" *___* Ein supertolles koreanisches Drama!!! Habs erst kürzlich entdeckt und bin in meiner freien Zeit nur noch am Episoden schaun *lach* Als in der freien Zeit die ich zu Hause bin und nicht lernen muss...das ist dann nicht so viel, aber in die Nacht hinein wirds dann eben schonmal später. Und...gestern Abend hats mich dann überkommen und -könnt ihrs errateb??-Ja, ich habs bestellt ^^ Wir iwann in den nächsten zwei Wochen hier ankommen *megafreu* Und ich bin total glücklich mit meiner Entscheidung *lach*
Und nochwas O.o Danke, Danke, DANKE Ramo xD Ich LIEBE das MusikVideo von Stand By U *__* Besonders das Ende wo Jaejoong direkt in die Kamera schau, OMG!!! Ich hab gedacht mein Herzschlag setzt aus XD Dabei wurd immer schneller ^^ Die Jungs sehen einfach klasse aus =) Irgendwie erwachsener, aber das ist hier durchweg positiv gemeint!! Ich könnt mir immer wieder ansehen...
Samstag, 6. Juni 2009
Subject:
Sayonara! Shinshi Doumei Cross
Und noch etwas ist passiert...und zwar habe ich mir vorgestern den letzten Band von Shinshi Doumei Cross - Allianz der Gentlemen gekauft und festgestellt...: Es ist der LETZTE!! ;__; Vorbei die schöne Geschichte, ich muss sagen, dass sie mir , auch wenn sie definitiv nicht das beste Werk von Arina Tanemura gewesen ist, sehr gut gefallen hat. Da bin ich eben totaler Shojo-Fan ^^
Besonders gefallen mir immer die "EndSzenen" in ihren Mangas, die letzten Worte, die den perfekten Abschluss formen. Darauf hab ich auch hier wieder mit Freuden gewartet und wurde nicht enttäuscht.
"Wenn die Sonne strahlt wird es irgendwann selbst in einem noch so dunklen Wald, in den sonst kein Licht eindringt, hell. Ein solches Licht will ich sein. Ich werde ein Sonnenfleck sein, gegen den die dunkle Einsamkeit keine Chance hat.
Zu leben, wie es mir gefällt... Das ist meine Art von Freiheit.
Machs gut, Cinderella. Wenn du auf der Treppe deinen Schuh verlierst, zieh am besten gleich den anderen auch aus. Du wirst dich umdrehen und mit deinem wahren entzauberten Gesicht in das Herz des Prinzen springen. Selbst wenn er dir einen Korb gibt, macht dir das nichts. Es ist besser als zu lügen. Es ist okay, weil ich immer und überall Spaß haben werde.
Daran glaube ich... So lebe ich. Ich liebe das Leben!"
Morgen ist es soweit *___* Morgen kommt Shreya! *freu* Das wird so schön ^^ Ich hoffe echt, dass wir uns gut verstehen und ne tolle Zeit zusammen haben =) Hab grad aufgereumt und da ist mir die Idee gekommen, ich könnte mich mal an die Bilder setzen, die ich noch zu überarbeiten hab. Das hab ich nun getan und hier drunter könnt ihr die Ergebnisse bestaunen XD Vielleicht wars schon ein bisschen zu dunkel. Das nächste Mal müssen wir früher hochlaufen Ramo...oder uns einfach nicht in den Weinbergen verirren ^^ Vielleicht geh ich heute Abend noch ins Kino. Meine Schwester ist wieder aus Frankfurt zurück und ich bin so froh sie wiederzuhaben =) Ist schon manchmal ein bisschen komisch als Einzelkind. Vielleicht erbarmt sie sich ja und geht mit mit. In welchen Film weiß ich noch garnicht, werd ich mich in der nächsten viertel Stunde mal drum bemühen, mich zu informieren was grad läuft. Ansonsten erwartet mich ein gemütlicher Abend im Wohnzimmer. Auch schön ^^
Achja, kleine Anmerkung...das eine Bild von mir...das mit dem Schwert...iwie hab ich rumgebastelt und auf einmal hatte ich diese - wie ich finde - "HorrorFilmAtmosphäre" auf dem Bild drauf *lach* Habs jetzt aber so gelassen.
Dienstag, 2. Juni 2009
Subject:
Rui ist und war schon immer viel besser als Domyoji
Hab heute 8 Stunden gearbeitet @__@ Auch wenn nicht viel los war, das schlaucht tierisch xD Heut Abend mach ich mir mit meiner Mom nen gemütlichen Abend =)
Dieser Post ist DIR Ramona und allen anderen, die Hana Yori Dango gesehen haben gewittmet...wobei das vermutlich das falsche Wort ist *lach* Sagen wir so, alle anderen können mit der nun folgenden Fanfic nichts anfangen ^^
Also...ich hab sie heute spontan mal wieder ausgegraben aus meinem DatenMeer und da sind Erinnerungen wach geworden *seufz* Ich bin einfach ein unglaublicher Rui Hanazawa-Fan. Domyoji kann mir gestohlen bleiben, Makinos Geschmack lässt zu wünschen übrig und und und...jaja, ich könnte ewig so weitermachen ^^ Fakt ist, dass ich diese Fanfic gleich nachdem ich die letzte Episode gesehen hatte, gelesen hab, sie erzählt das Ende des Dramas aus Ruis Sicht...hab mich danach so elend gefühlt ;___; Ich bin doch eh immer son Emotionsbolzen wenns um Bücher oder Filme geht und das hat mir dann iwie den Rest gegeben ^^'
Also ganz wichtig wärend em lesen: Flavour of Life von Hikaru Utada hören =) Hab ich auch gemacht und das passt einfach zur Stimmung, die diese Fanfic vermitteln soll...viel Spaß ♡
THE HEART OF A STAR
Rui Hanazawa waited with the rest of the crowd in the arena for Makino Tsukushi to arrive. She was late, extremely late. But although Makino was late, Rui had a gut feeling deep down inside that she was okay, and so he didn’t have to worry about her.
The longer he waited with the rest of the crowd, the more he ached inside within the darkness of the arena. The whispers of the crowd in the dark were faint compared to the thoughts racing through his mind. Before he could say anything to Akira and Soujiro, the doors of the arena suddenly swung open, and everything fell silent.
Makino had pushed open the doors and had rushed in to find that her prom was over. She knew very well that she probably would’ve missed her graduation, but her prom as well?
“I didn’t make it in time...” Makino stated to herself sadly.
A sudden realisation that the moments she had been waiting for, the reasons why she had been suffering for years at Eitoku Academy for had all disappeared before she could even have a chance to enjoy them. But that wasn’t the most important thing on her mind, the deepest regret she had at that very instant was that she didn’t get to dance with Domyouji at her own prom.
Looking down to the floor, Makino stood there in the darkness for what seemed like an eternity, the darkness of the arena hiding her sad face. But before she could even start to cry, a voice suddenly shouted, “You’re late!!”
Makino slowly lifted her head up in the direction of the voice with puzzlement. Before her was a young man slowly walking towards her in a gold suit, strutting slowly with his hands in his pockets.
“Domyouji...”
Before Makino could speak further and criticize about his outfit, he stopped a few metres in front of her yelled at her saying, “What’s with that outfit?” She was still in school uniform.
“What happened to the dress I sent you!?” Domyouji yelled, seemingly upset.
Tsukushi realised that she really was in school uniform and had forgotten to get dressed for the prom, she really was that late. At first she wondered what her punishment would be, whether Domyouji would drag her out of the room, or something drastic. But instead, Domyouji just laughed.
“I’m Tsukushi, the weed, after all. Dresses don’t go with me.”
In the darkness watching in from the sidelines, Rui Hanazawa silently disagreed.
He remembered back to the moments during Shizuka’s party. When Shizuka took Makino away and dressed her up all pretty-like, her outfit never seemed to look like it didn’t suit her. Dresses do go well with Makino, if they do not in Makino’s mind, at the very least they do in the Rui Hanazawa’s eyes. Even though back then Shizuka was filled in his mind, it was at that very same time back then that Makino slowly started to grow within Rui’s heart.
But now, as Rui watched Makino and Domyouji speak to each other in the dark, something deep inside his heart slowly began to die. In silent agony, Rui could do nothing but watch on.
“Makino!!” Domyouji began again.
“Mmm?” Makino replied, no longer upset about missing her graduation or prom, but entirely fixed upon her conversation with Domyouji.
“As the best girl, there’s something I want to tell you.”
Was he really serious? Was this the same Domyouji she had punched out in the very beginning of it all?
Domyouji watched her response, and with a small smile stated, “You’re going to marry me.”
It was no longer a question anymore, but a statement, a command somewhat. But in all ways, it was a command of love. This was Domyouji’s declaration of love.
For a while Makino was silent. She stood quietly staring back at Domyouji who was but only a few feet away from her. Yes, this was really happening. Her dream of marrying Domyouji was slowly coming true, and much sooner than she had imagined!
Before she could answer, he lifted his hand up and outstretched it towards her as if signalling for her to come.
“Makino.” He simply stated, and smiled patiently at her as she stared back at him still shocked by his statement.
Makino stared at his hand for a bit, wondering whether she should take it. This was a big step in life, and because it was Domyouji... it made the step even bigger.
For a small second she thought about the pain she had gone through, Kaeda Domyouji, Shigeru, Sakurako and Umi. So many rivals for Domyouji’s life, so many wanting Domyouji’s heart, and yet he wanted her. He chose her. Makino had gone through so much pain just because of Domyouji. Did she want to suffer still, just to be with him?
Before her mind could decide, her feet slowly instinctively walked towards Domyouji. One by one, step by step, her heart filled with warmth the closer she got towards Domyouji, as if he was her sun. But this wasn’t the warmth of the sun that was filling her deep inside, it was the warmth of love. Domyouji’s love.
The more she walked closer towards Domyouji, the more convinced she was that Domyouji was definitely the one. He was her true love, her destiny, her Saturnian heart. The closer she became to him, the more she believed that this was right, that this was the way things should be.
From a far Rui Hanazawa watched silently with the rest of the crowd. But unlike the crowd, he was certain that his heart was not contained with excitement. It was filled with fear; the fear of pain again. No matter how much he tried to look away, he couldn’t help but watch. He knew that no matter whether he looked or didn’t, this pain he was afraid of would eventually come.
When Rui looked again, Makino had stopped walking and was now quite close to Domyouji. Domyouji’s hand was now in front of her face, still outstretched. Makino had not taken it, yet. Perhaps there was still hope? But knowing Makino, Rui already knew that it was too late for him, no matter not.
Apart of Rui wanted to shout out, “Wait!” but he bit down the urge to do so. This was Domyouji’s time now. Rui didn’t want to be selfish.
“We’ve taken plenty of detours… and I’ve made you suffer plenty but… I still want to be with you.”
Rui cringed in the darkness as he watched Domyouji make this speech, and for what was about to come next.
“So marry me.” Domyouji said softly, completing his speech.
Makino looked up towards Domyouji in disbelief. Yes, could confirm now that this was the Domyouji that she had punched before in her school cafeteria not so long ago, but now he was different. He had grown. No longer the angry young man that hated his mother, no longer the individual that wanted to sacrifice his own love life to save people’s jobs, no. This was the Domyouji that loved Makino, completely and entirely, that was all.
“Oh well, I guess so.” Makino replied, slightly turning her head to look away.
She didn’t want Domyouji to see how deep she was touched. She was still somewhat embarrassed with her emotions after all. But when she looked at him again, Domyouji didn’t question her actions. Instead, he just smiled.
Finally, she lifted her arm to take his hand in hers. Whilst doing so, Rui Hanazawa’s heart slowly began to shatter.
Things never work out for me with the girl I fall in love with...
When Rui looked at Makino and Domyouji again, Domyouji was lifting Makino up into his arms. The lights of the arena suddenly turned on and confetti started to fall. Moments after a large loud roar began from the patient audience that had been sitting silently in the dark for far too long. The silence of the crowd changed into bursts of cheer and a round of applause.
So this is how love dies, with a round of applause.
In defeat Rui walked up to the lucky couple and with a smile stated, “Congratulations.”
It was over. Domyouji had won.
He could now only be happy for them, because at the very end of the day, you only want what’s best for the one you love. You want them to be happy, even though their happiness is not with you.
As the rest of the F4 took their turns to dance with Makino, Rui Hanazawa realised that soon his turn would come, and when he did he had to brave a smile just for Makino when they danced. He found himself dancing mindlessly with the other girls, waiting for his turn to dance with Makino.
When he finally started dancing with Makino, he realised he could hold her close without any guilt. It was after all, just dancing. But to Rui, this was no ordinary dance. This was how he wanted Makino to remember him, and this is how he always wanted to remember Makino. Before they could exchange looks, he lifted Makino into the air, and grinned. Everyone who watched thought nothing of it, and only applauded.
It’s no secret that Rui was proud of her. No matter what happens, he was the one who saw Makino first, and some way, somehow she will always be his Makino. The girl who took on the F4 with no regrets, and like a dandelion, from a weed, turned into her very own flower.
No matter what happens in life from now on. No matter what heart ache or girls he comes across. He will always somehow deep down love Makino Tsukushi, the one that got away. Even though his change was not drastic as Domyouji, Rui Hanazawa had definitely changed because of her.
Sitting on a park bench, Rui Hanazawa played his violin. This song, a song he had just randomly made up was a song of farewell. He played it instinctively, as if he had played this song many times before. As he played, he was unsure why his song was so bitter-sweet, but the music that played were not of sheets, but of his own emotions deep within.
As he played he noticed a little girl dressed in pink staring back at him, watching him play. It reminded him about the times Makino Tsukushi would catch him playing back at school, and would beg for him to play again, and yet he refused. He stopped playing. Those days were over now.
He studied the girl carefully, this girl looked so much like Makino, and the resemblance was uncanny. Luckily she was super short, so she was definitely not Makino.
“Here, you can have it.” He said kindly as he offered the violin.
The girl walked closer to take the violin in her hands.
“You can play it once you grow up.” He stated again, kindly.
“Arigato!” the little Makino looking girl stated in astonishment.
Rui could only pat her head, and walk away.
Even though the little girl was definitely not Makino, Rui couldn’t help but think that this was another sacrifice for Makino; first his heart, now his violin – what next!? But with this thought, Rui could only laugh. Yes, he had definitely changed, and it was all thanks to Makino.
It was at that moment he was certain that no matter what he gave away, no matter what he gave up, it would never amount to losing Makino. Though he may or may not be the destined ‘Saturnian heart’ that Domyouji is, and Domyouji may be Makino’s sun. Rui was more than happy to just be Makino’s guiding star. Like a star he’d watch over her, shine upon her, guide her, understand her dreams, her wishes, and even when the sun goes down, he’ll still be there for her.
Rui Hanazawa will always love Makino Tsukushi, and somewhere, somehow deep within one would hope that deep down inside Makino Tsukushi will always love Rui Hanazawa, because first loves never die.
Montag, 1. Juni 2009
Subject:
A Millionaire's First Love
Warum suche ich mir immer Filme aus die traurig enden? Mal ehrlich, langsam denke ich, das ist vorherbestimmt xD Ich wollte irgendsonen süßen koreanischen Liebesfilm anschaun...davon gibts dort doch so viele wie Sand am Meer...Nix da, ich land natürlich wieder bei voll dem Drama, dass einen am Ende mehrfach zum heulen bringt >.< Ich mein, nicht dass ich A Millionaires First Love nicht toll find, nein, den kann man sich wirklich öfters anschaun...aber warum muss er denn schlecht enden?? Jetzt sitz ich hier zu Hause und bin total down u.u
Grad eben sind die Gäste meiner Eltern gekommen...ich denke, dass ich demnächst mal hochschaun werd um "Hallo" zu sagen und seh mal ob ich helfen kann...ansonsten ist heute nix aufregendes passiert =)
Ramo, war so lustig die letzte Nacht xD Jaja, ich weiß, du wartest jetzt bestimmt auf die Bilder unseres SpontanShootings, aber da musst du noch ein bisschen warten x) Bin noch nicht dazu gekommen.
Mehr gibts grad nicht zu erzählen...ich hab hunger...
Ich bin Ich. Tagträumerin, Optimistin, Ferienjobberin, Morgenmuffel, Warmduscher, Bücherwurm und DBSK-Fan.
Ich liebe Kaffeegeruch und hasse Uhrenticken. Ich könnte Stunden in unserer Hängematte liegen - wenn mich nur jemand dabei anschucken würde, seit meinem 13ten Lebensjahr möchte ich nach Japan reisen, ein Traum, den ich mir im Winter 2009 erfüllt habe (Yaaaay ^___^ ), ich kann nicht ohne meinen I-Pod und schreibe für mein Leben gern Gedichte. Ich bin Ich.
Keine Ahnung wies euch geht, aber ich bin grad total in Sommerlaune ^^ Wenn ich nicht die ganze Zeit lernen müsste, könnte ich diesen Drang ganz viel draußen zu machen auch ausleben...irgendwie klappt das aber nicht so ganz. Noch eine Woche, dann ist das Schlimmste überstanden =)
